Did you know that a dove has a binocular visual field?
It is only able to focus on a single object at a time.
My recent cat scans showed all but one of the tumors have shrunk by 2mm each!
All the results of healing by natural means.
This should have been great news.
I should have been jumping up and down.
But I wasn't.
My focus had shifted.
I was, this day, glaring at the medical issues, the problems, instead of the One who was in control.
The good news was overshadowed by the fact that I was told my sugar was really high. (I have been a diabetic since 2004 as a result of a volley ball size tumor on my pancreas...but I kept it under control with diet and exercise until fall of 2011)
I knew I had not been taking care of my sugar, not even checking my glucose, because I was too busy trying to take care of the cancer. I just didn't think it had gotten this bad.
The reason this bothered me so deeply, was the fact that all that sugar in my body was feeding the cancer.
I was, in essence, sabotaging my own best efforts to heal naturally.
So even though my doctor was so pleased he told me to get my sugar under control, keep doing my natural routine and come back in SIX months. I said, "Three months?"
"No," he said, "six months is fine".
This scientist, this inventor of certain kinds of chemotherapy drugs, this caring doctor, was now a believer. He felt positive about the therapy I am doing.
But all I could focus on was......
my sugar is high and it kept the tumors from shrinking more than they were....
and it was my fault!!
When we get our focus off of the One who is always in control, always loving, always caring, it is like walking a tight rope and looking down when you know you should never look down.
Suddenly there is fear, anxiety and focus on the problems at hand, which seem like mountains that won't move.
The evil in this world wants us to feel this fear and anxiety. He uses this against us more than anything else.
After all that I have been through...
I know better.
I know these roads signs.
I have been down this trail before.
But human I am.
Thankfully I am human with a new name on my forehead.
Friends and family kept pointing out to me how awesome was the news that I didn't have to go back to the doctor for six months. This is GREAT news for a cancer patient.
Then I heard God tell me...
"I'm still in control"
"Haven't I brought you through this?"
"My love remains."
"Be thankful for this good report."
"There are so many praying for you."
Then I realized all these things He was telling me, were all my blogs!!!
I had to go back over all of them for my own use....
Yes, I am just only in the middle of my story. This is not the end.
In the blink of an eye my whole life changed...for the better. :) I like myself so much more now that God has got a hold of me.
His love for me is the One thing that always remains!
I am getting through this because of Him.
I do know, how much He loves me. Much more than I ever imagined.
Eucahristeo! I am so very, very thankful.
I have paid and am paying a high cost going through all that I have and the high fiscal cost of the natural remedies, but He paid an even higher cost for me.
I am letting God handle this....I CANNOT do it.
I know that I am delightful to him and He has become ever more delightful to me.
I have had so many intercessors join in praying on my behalf and I am deeply thankful.
I KNOW how I want this to turn out and for that to happen I have to take the good remedy He offers, I have to trust Him. I have to believe in what He offers and I have to believe Him, and His power and ability.
I now know, through what He has given us on this earth, I can have nutritional healing for everything that ails me! Eating all of the vegetables and drinking my 10 specific vegetable juices every day has made me feel so good. It has healed terrible left over effects of chemotherapy and has caused the cancer in my body to be more and more diminished with the last two cat scans I have had.
And even though He has opened my eyes to really see all the little "secrets of life" around me,
I have to remember to keep my focus on Him at all times,
just as if I had that same dove like binocular vision field.